This time of year always starts to get rough for me, the days are shorter and the lack of light start to impact my mental health. But each year I get better at coping and as part of that process try to keep doing positive things with the more frequent self reflection sessions that happen in this head space. I mean it can definitely be a positive and negative thing. This post is one of them, a little deeper than I've ever done before (because I've never really talked about mental health, but I've been meaning to). And also a bit of a 'fuck you' to those parts of me in the back of my mind telling me I'm not enough, you hear me? I am.
So I thought I'd write a post about insecurities, because we all have them, and I think it's better to look at them and say "you know what. you're ok" to try and get along with them and that;s what I'm trying to achieve here. Firstly by recognising what arts of me I don't like so much and then by trying to accept them and move on. So I'm going to list some, talk about why I have an issue and then try and put it to rest; or at least start to. I've used photos already from posts to really show myself (from looking through the photos) how much I avoid my insecurities to work on that in the future.
Though this post is definitely not a complete list of my insecurities, there are a lot I think I'm not willing to admit very openly at the moment. It's more the ones that I see physically in pictures of myself, and after almost 2 and a half years of frequently taking and editing pictures of myself I've gotten more accustomed to what you could call "flaws" and now want to make peace with them I guess. I hope this post has the positive message intended.