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This outfit post was originally planned for last week, when I wrote a post talking about the atrocities in Chechnya and how the media are saying nothing about the whole thing, but adding an outfit and pictures of me into it didn’t seem right so I thought I’d keep the two separate.
It also gives me a bit of a chance to talk about finding my voice and the new muccycloud that’s coming.
Shirt -Reblubble
Skirt - Old (similar)
For the last year I’ve been posting a lot of travel posts (1 a week in fact) and have been posting consistently and happily. But I’ve become a bit bored of just posting about what I did when I went travelling and just kind of reeling it off. The travel posts are coming to an end and I’m going to be posting twice a week with content I really want to post. I will still be doing travel segments but they’ll be done in a different way, they’ll hopefully be a lot better, and will be less often (as I don’t travel for six months of the year ever year).
As some of you guys know I’ve been writing for Love From Berlin, and loving it, for a couple of months through which I’ve had a chance to work with Rae and  her editors and have had people being constructively critical about my work and my voice. It’s helped me to no end, it’s given me so much more confidence to write better and write what I want. So that’s what’s coming.
Stronger voice, me being more myself. I don’t want to reveal too much, as my new site is currently being designed, but it’s going to be a “friendly activist blog” where I’ll post a lot about ethical fashion but also about mental health, about LGBT issues like my last post (which was a while ago I know, exams are taking over), and other things like that. My site had matured and transformed over the years as I have and now it’s time for a big leap as I grow and gain more confidence to talk openly about things that are important to me. I hope you guys can look forward to it because I am very excited.
The outfit! I found a picture of this t shirt on some social media site and needed it immediately. It has a good point and wearing it does make me feel a little self-conscious, of judgement from people, but I want to have the confidence to wear it out and to challenge my insecurities, like I will hopefully be doing with the new version of this little site.
It’s time to speak up and stand up for what I believe in rather than just thinking it and being too scared of how others might perceive me.

Moving Forward

Friday, 26 May 2017

This outfit post was originally planned for last week, when I wrote a post talking about the atrocities in Chechnya and how the media are saying nothing about the whole thing, but adding an outfit and pictures of me into it didn’t seem right so I thought I’d keep the two separate.
It also gives me a bit of a chance to talk about finding my voice and the new muccycloud that’s coming.
Shirt -Reblubble
Skirt - Old (similar)
For the last year I’ve been posting a lot of travel posts (1 a week in fact) and have been posting consistently and happily. But I’ve become a bit bored of just posting about what I did when I went travelling and just kind of reeling it off. The travel posts are coming to an end and I’m going to be posting twice a week with content I really want to post. I will still be doing travel segments but they’ll be done in a different way, they’ll hopefully be a lot better, and will be less often (as I don’t travel for six months of the year ever year).
As some of you guys know I’ve been writing for Love From Berlin, and loving it, for a couple of months through which I’ve had a chance to work with Rae and  her editors and have had people being constructively critical about my work and my voice. It’s helped me to no end, it’s given me so much more confidence to write better and write what I want. So that’s what’s coming.
Stronger voice, me being more myself. I don’t want to reveal too much, as my new site is currently being designed, but it’s going to be a “friendly activist blog” where I’ll post a lot about ethical fashion but also about mental health, about LGBT issues like my last post (which was a while ago I know, exams are taking over), and other things like that. My site had matured and transformed over the years as I have and now it’s time for a big leap as I grow and gain more confidence to talk openly about things that are important to me. I hope you guys can look forward to it because I am very excited.
The outfit! I found a picture of this t shirt on some social media site and needed it immediately. It has a good point and wearing it does make me feel a little self-conscious, of judgement from people, but I want to have the confidence to wear it out and to challenge my insecurities, like I will hopefully be doing with the new version of this little site.
It’s time to speak up and stand up for what I believe in rather than just thinking it and being too scared of how others might perceive me.
A warning that there is some sensitive and possibly upsetting material in this post.
If you are not aware, right now in Chechnya men purely suspected of being gay are being rounded up and put into what can only be described as concentration camps. First, known gay rights activists were taken, their phones were searched and any men in their contacts were also taken. Some men have been given to their families for “honour killings”, while others have been sent to their deaths in these camps. At least four men have been killed.
If you are not aware I can understand why, because mainstream media seem to be on radio silence about the situations. While gay news outlets are in outcry about the atrocities, and the breach of human rights being committed in Chechnya, the mainstream media doesn’t seem to give a damn. The mainstream media is showing its total lack of solidarity with the LGBT community and I don’t think it’s acceptable.

Ok so they’re saying something. But in my mind the fact that our brothers in Chechnya are being rounded up based on the suspicion that they are gay and the fact that human rights are being violated left, right and centre should be headline news, not just a few stories here and there. Last week a 17-year-old was pushed from a building by his family as part of an honour killing, and at least three men have been killed in prison camps.  This is a genocide campaign, yet as this news broke on LGBT sites, the front page of the BBC news website was free of stories about Chechnya. Other mainstream news sites were much the same. I haven’t talked much about LGBT issues on this site before, but I think now is the time to start.
The rounding up of gay men, and others suspected of being gay, was triggered after the Russian LGBT Network applied for protest rights. This was then followed by police officers arresting over 100 gay men and taking them to prison camps where they were tortured. It has since been discovered there are at least six prisons in the region holding men on suspicion of their sexuality. These men are being tortured with the hope they will tell the police about other gay men.

And what did the Chechen leader, Ramzan Kadyrov, have to say about all of this when questioned? That they cannot be killing what doesn’t exist; his defence is that there are simply no gay men in Chechnya, an area populated by well over a million people.

The message now coming from Chechnya to families is to kill your gay family members before the government takes them and kills them. It is heartbreaking and disgusting. Reports have said Kadyrov wants the gay population eradicated before Ramadan. This is serious.
But there is hope, the Russian LGBT Network has rescued over 40 men from persecution and they keep trying. The UN as well as major political figures, such as Angela Merkel has also spoken up against this horrific breach of human rights. Russia is even starting an investigation into these killings, though little will probably come from this apart from lies and denial. More does need to be done.
And there are things that you can do. Firstly, spread the word about what is happening in Chechnya; let the mainstream media know you’re not happy about their lack of news. Show your solidarity and your outrage. You can also sign petitions like the Amnesty International one to bring visibility. Secondly, put pressure on your local government to do something, to tell Russia this is unacceptable and to cut ties with them. Even if this is very unlikely (in places such as America), add the pressure anyway. Thirdly, you can donate to the Russian LGBT Network which is trying desperately to get men out of Chechnya and to safety.

Let people know that the LGBT community, along with its allies, is a community that will stand with its brothers and tell the world that we exist and will not take this breach of human rights.

I’d like to thank those that spoke at the protest in Nottingham a few weeks ago. You were all amazing speakers, and though I’ve never done a post like this on here before, you inspired me to find my voice, so thank you. If it’s you in any of these pictures please let me know. All photos are from that protest.

We Exist, and We Will Not Be Silenced

Tuesday, 16 May 2017

A warning that there is some sensitive and possibly upsetting material in this post.
If you are not aware, right now in Chechnya men purely suspected of being gay are being rounded up and put into what can only be described as concentration camps. First, known gay rights activists were taken, their phones were searched and any men in their contacts were also taken. Some men have been given to their families for “honour killings”, while others have been sent to their deaths in these camps. At least four men have been killed.
If you are not aware I can understand why, because mainstream media seem to be on radio silence about the situations. While gay news outlets are in outcry about the atrocities, and the breach of human rights being committed in Chechnya, the mainstream media doesn’t seem to give a damn. The mainstream media is showing its total lack of solidarity with the LGBT community and I don’t think it’s acceptable.

Ok so they’re saying something. But in my mind the fact that our brothers in Chechnya are being rounded up based on the suspicion that they are gay and the fact that human rights are being violated left, right and centre should be headline news, not just a few stories here and there. Last week a 17-year-old was pushed from a building by his family as part of an honour killing, and at least three men have been killed in prison camps.  This is a genocide campaign, yet as this news broke on LGBT sites, the front page of the BBC news website was free of stories about Chechnya. Other mainstream news sites were much the same. I haven’t talked much about LGBT issues on this site before, but I think now is the time to start.
The rounding up of gay men, and others suspected of being gay, was triggered after the Russian LGBT Network applied for protest rights. This was then followed by police officers arresting over 100 gay men and taking them to prison camps where they were tortured. It has since been discovered there are at least six prisons in the region holding men on suspicion of their sexuality. These men are being tortured with the hope they will tell the police about other gay men.

And what did the Chechen leader, Ramzan Kadyrov, have to say about all of this when questioned? That they cannot be killing what doesn’t exist; his defence is that there are simply no gay men in Chechnya, an area populated by well over a million people.

The message now coming from Chechnya to families is to kill your gay family members before the government takes them and kills them. It is heartbreaking and disgusting. Reports have said Kadyrov wants the gay population eradicated before Ramadan. This is serious.
But there is hope, the Russian LGBT Network has rescued over 40 men from persecution and they keep trying. The UN as well as major political figures, such as Angela Merkel has also spoken up against this horrific breach of human rights. Russia is even starting an investigation into these killings, though little will probably come from this apart from lies and denial. More does need to be done.
And there are things that you can do. Firstly, spread the word about what is happening in Chechnya; let the mainstream media know you’re not happy about their lack of news. Show your solidarity and your outrage. You can also sign petitions like the Amnesty International one to bring visibility. Secondly, put pressure on your local government to do something, to tell Russia this is unacceptable and to cut ties with them. Even if this is very unlikely (in places such as America), add the pressure anyway. Thirdly, you can donate to the Russian LGBT Network which is trying desperately to get men out of Chechnya and to safety.

Let people know that the LGBT community, along with its allies, is a community that will stand with its brothers and tell the world that we exist and will not take this breach of human rights.

I’d like to thank those that spoke at the protest in Nottingham a few weeks ago. You were all amazing speakers, and though I’ve never done a post like this on here before, you inspired me to find my voice, so thank you. If it’s you in any of these pictures please let me know. All photos are from that protest.
I have had many people, who have known me very well, tell me that I would absolutely love Hong Kong, and they weren't wrong.

My burn out followed from Halong bay and Hoi An and into Hong Kong, and I'll admit that I did spend a lot of my time napping. But I explored a bit too. I'd say I went out for an hour or two, then chilled and napped for an hour or two, and that was my four days there.

From shopping at some amazing second hand places, eating the best veggie food, and visiting the museum, I did a bit of exploring. Though not nearly enough, I definitely have to go back (and preferably before my octopus card runs out because I forgot to return it).

I'd definitely check out the History museum if you go, it has a lot of the cultural history of Hong Kong which I was completely oblivious too and it's just beautiful in there. Maybe I'm biased because I love learning about cultural history but it's free entry so you're definitely not wasting any money.


I am so glad about the ease of getting around, I never felt anxious or worried about being there and I always knew that I'd just have to find an MTR stop to find my way back to my hostel. The perfect place for a weekend away on your own, well for me anyway.
And everything is on top of eachother, intertwined, and slotted in, perfectly together. I just love the way the whole place looks.

I even managed to find the street my Dad used to live on, maybe I'll drag him along as a tour guide next time.

Oh and try Soo Veggi, I ate there 3 or 4 times in my four days because it was round the corner from my hostel and the food was soo good (very bad pun intended).

I will be back soon HK, I promise.

A Sleepy Weekend In Hong Kong

Saturday, 13 May 2017

I have had many people, who have known me very well, tell me that I would absolutely love Hong Kong, and they weren't wrong.

My burn out followed from Halong bay and Hoi An and into Hong Kong, and I'll admit that I did spend a lot of my time napping. But I explored a bit too. I'd say I went out for an hour or two, then chilled and napped for an hour or two, and that was my four days there.

From shopping at some amazing second hand places, eating the best veggie food, and visiting the museum, I did a bit of exploring. Though not nearly enough, I definitely have to go back (and preferably before my octopus card runs out because I forgot to return it).

I'd definitely check out the History museum if you go, it has a lot of the cultural history of Hong Kong which I was completely oblivious too and it's just beautiful in there. Maybe I'm biased because I love learning about cultural history but it's free entry so you're definitely not wasting any money.


I am so glad about the ease of getting around, I never felt anxious or worried about being there and I always knew that I'd just have to find an MTR stop to find my way back to my hostel. The perfect place for a weekend away on your own, well for me anyway.
And everything is on top of eachother, intertwined, and slotted in, perfectly together. I just love the way the whole place looks.

I even managed to find the street my Dad used to live on, maybe I'll drag him along as a tour guide next time.

Oh and try Soo Veggi, I ate there 3 or 4 times in my four days because it was round the corner from my hostel and the food was soo good (very bad pun intended).

I will be back soon HK, I promise.

So my last couple of ethical brand features have proved pretty popular with you guys, and as it's coming up to festival season and I'm looking for some clothes that I feel are fit for them festival vibes, I thought I would share some with you guys!

I don't encourage buying clothes for one use here, festival clothing is something that is, a lot of the time, designed for one use but I'm looking for clothes I can wear to festivals, nights out, and other cool events. I have two festivals this year and am also going to Carnivale in Cuba, so any pieces I buy are going to be getting multiple wears just this summer and will be kept for future too.

This post features a few brands I think are festival worthy and then also just a collection of awesome items I have found.
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Ethical Festival Clothing

Tuesday, 9 May 2017

So my last couple of ethical brand features have proved pretty popular with you guys, and as it's coming up to festival season and I'm looking for some clothes that I feel are fit for them festival vibes, I thought I would share some with you guys!

I don't encourage buying clothes for one use here, festival clothing is something that is, a lot of the time, designed for one use but I'm looking for clothes I can wear to festivals, nights out, and other cool events. I have two festivals this year and am also going to Carnivale in Cuba, so any pieces I buy are going to be getting multiple wears just this summer and will be kept for future too.

This post features a few brands I think are festival worthy and then also just a collection of awesome items I have found.
1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 |

Halong Bay is world famous. It's beautiful and awe inspiring, on boat trips out there you can enjoy the scenery, explore caves, kayak in blue waters. So what did I do? I ate my lunch and then fell asleep on the boat.
Ok so I did appreciate some of the beauty of Halong bay, it was serene out there, with the impressive limestone islands, covered in trees, jutting out of sparkling waters. As we were being driven around them I did sit on the top deck and stare out in my almost deliriously tired state and appreciate the beauty.

But as everyone else went off to explore the caves and kayak, i found a nice spot on the boat and drifted off to sleep. I have no regrets. After almost two months of pretty non stop travel, getting up at 4am for large parts of the trip and spending the rest of it travelling or doing physical labour I was, i can safely say, very burnt out.
I never really understood burn out I thought it was due to stress, but I wasn't stressed, I was happy and very much loving everything I was doing, but I was drained, exhausted and just wanted to sleep. I was slightly delirious and so glad that I had a tour guide to tell me where to go and when, very glad to have safe private busses where I could pass out, and also a private boat on halong bay to sleep on too.

I didn't quite sleep 24/7, but it was close for a few days. I was awake long enough to look out on Halong bay and appreciate it, long enough to see the construction sites on the small town going in to making Chinese owned theme parks (which I think is gross and ruins the natural beauty of the place). And I don't really regret it, even when you're travelling the world and in beautiful places that you may never see again, or at least not in the same way, sometimes your body and mind are going to take over and be like "no this is too much let me rest". That's what happened and it's ok.
One place I do think I need to go back to is Hanoi city though, that's not getting it's own post and it's also got barely any footage from because I ate, took a bath, and slept for the three days that I was there. I didn't get to see the sites or go to museums. I saw the view from my room, and the view from restaurants we went to and that was about it. But again, my body said no more and I listened, it's ok to sleep for a few days when you need to. Travel is hard when you're seeing new sites every day and having so many experiences and routine changes, sometimes you need to sleep on the boat boat that's going through an incredibly beautiful part of the world.

Burnt Out in Halong Bay

Friday, 5 May 2017 Hạ Long Bay, Thành phố Hạ Long, Quảng Ninh Province, Vietnam

Halong Bay is world famous. It's beautiful and awe inspiring, on boat trips out there you can enjoy the scenery, explore caves, kayak in blue waters. So what did I do? I ate my lunch and then fell asleep on the boat.
Ok so I did appreciate some of the beauty of Halong bay, it was serene out there, with the impressive limestone islands, covered in trees, jutting out of sparkling waters. As we were being driven around them I did sit on the top deck and stare out in my almost deliriously tired state and appreciate the beauty.

But as everyone else went off to explore the caves and kayak, i found a nice spot on the boat and drifted off to sleep. I have no regrets. After almost two months of pretty non stop travel, getting up at 4am for large parts of the trip and spending the rest of it travelling or doing physical labour I was, i can safely say, very burnt out.
I never really understood burn out I thought it was due to stress, but I wasn't stressed, I was happy and very much loving everything I was doing, but I was drained, exhausted and just wanted to sleep. I was slightly delirious and so glad that I had a tour guide to tell me where to go and when, very glad to have safe private busses where I could pass out, and also a private boat on halong bay to sleep on too.

I didn't quite sleep 24/7, but it was close for a few days. I was awake long enough to look out on Halong bay and appreciate it, long enough to see the construction sites on the small town going in to making Chinese owned theme parks (which I think is gross and ruins the natural beauty of the place). And I don't really regret it, even when you're travelling the world and in beautiful places that you may never see again, or at least not in the same way, sometimes your body and mind are going to take over and be like "no this is too much let me rest". That's what happened and it's ok.
One place I do think I need to go back to is Hanoi city though, that's not getting it's own post and it's also got barely any footage from because I ate, took a bath, and slept for the three days that I was there. I didn't get to see the sites or go to museums. I saw the view from my room, and the view from restaurants we went to and that was about it. But again, my body said no more and I listened, it's ok to sleep for a few days when you need to. Travel is hard when you're seeing new sites every day and having so many experiences and routine changes, sometimes you need to sleep on the boat boat that's going through an incredibly beautiful part of the world.
This post is very late to the party, what with it being the 2nd of may (crazyy). This is because I was waiting to develop about 5 photos from my film reel, all from the last two days of march, the only pain of film photography is the waiting. I was going to do this post last week but then it was Fashion Revolution week and that was more important to post about than how my March went.
So a very late march post, but I like reflecting on months past, it gives a nice positive perspective which is something I need in this very stressful May to come.

March was a sunny and all round positive month, it's a month where I really felt settled into uni, i was doing loads of things I wanted to and all round enjoying myself.

I've also changed my photo taking round half way through, it was quite creatively stunting to have to just take 1 photo, evey single day, where some days I did 101 things and others I spend 3 days stright in my flat doing work. So now at the end of the month I aim for photos to show how my month went but not with one photo every day, with lots of photos from a range of days as this feels more free and creative.
1st March means St Davids Day! I was going to make welsh cakes but I was curled up in bed all day.
Spoons for a hungover friend, well and me but they needed it more.
Dicks on a bus
A very pretty sky
Stone Baked Pizza Company do soya free vegan cheese!!
I can never tell where my camera is focusing, this was supposed to be cute
My Mumma came to visit! 
????
dunno what it is but I like it
This field is now covered in beautiful flowers, I see it every day on my way to campus
The total babe in the middle's Birthday Celebrations

l
My door is too heavy for this doorstop, so he lives on my window sill
Japanese food after Japanese class
Was trying tot take a picture of the cool shadow on the empty bus, didn't go to plan
This picture wasn't taken in Wales but it feels very, very Welsh
@ Fan Club's Second Birthday, basically an amazing girl party, I wrote an article about it for this month's Love From Berlin (live May 8th)
Yasassin
Me in my element, full of vegan cake and covered in glitter
Is it really a Birthday Party without confetti?
On the way to take a load of photos, took a photo
The first time I've been in Nottingham's bus station,
Car Park Rooftops are my fave
Card Games and Calligraphy in Japanese Society
Rainbow over Campus
Trees blossoming are just too pretty

Ok so that's a lot of photos, so much happened in March! It was actually a wonderful month, where I really felt home in Nottingham and at Uni. Happy times.

Good things that happened in March:
- Nottingham finally, properly felt like home
- I ate a lot of good food
- I had good sober nights out! Yay 4 healing my stomach
- My Mum came to visit me
- Flowers started to pop up everywhere, and the trees started to look green
- I went to one of the best gigs I've ever been to for Fanclub's 2nd Birthday
- Took time to scout out photography locations and go explore
- Did my Japanese speaking exam, and got a 2:1

So that's it for March, soon I'll be reflecting on April but for not it's back to getting through May, it's going to be a tough one.

2017 in Compact: March

Tuesday, 2 May 2017

This post is very late to the party, what with it being the 2nd of may (crazyy). This is because I was waiting to develop about 5 photos from my film reel, all from the last two days of march, the only pain of film photography is the waiting. I was going to do this post last week but then it was Fashion Revolution week and that was more important to post about than how my March went.
So a very late march post, but I like reflecting on months past, it gives a nice positive perspective which is something I need in this very stressful May to come.

March was a sunny and all round positive month, it's a month where I really felt settled into uni, i was doing loads of things I wanted to and all round enjoying myself.

I've also changed my photo taking round half way through, it was quite creatively stunting to have to just take 1 photo, evey single day, where some days I did 101 things and others I spend 3 days stright in my flat doing work. So now at the end of the month I aim for photos to show how my month went but not with one photo every day, with lots of photos from a range of days as this feels more free and creative.
1st March means St Davids Day! I was going to make welsh cakes but I was curled up in bed all day.
Spoons for a hungover friend, well and me but they needed it more.
Dicks on a bus
A very pretty sky
Stone Baked Pizza Company do soya free vegan cheese!!
I can never tell where my camera is focusing, this was supposed to be cute
My Mumma came to visit! 
????
dunno what it is but I like it
This field is now covered in beautiful flowers, I see it every day on my way to campus
The total babe in the middle's Birthday Celebrations

l
My door is too heavy for this doorstop, so he lives on my window sill
Japanese food after Japanese class
Was trying tot take a picture of the cool shadow on the empty bus, didn't go to plan
This picture wasn't taken in Wales but it feels very, very Welsh
@ Fan Club's Second Birthday, basically an amazing girl party, I wrote an article about it for this month's Love From Berlin (live May 8th)
Yasassin
Me in my element, full of vegan cake and covered in glitter
Is it really a Birthday Party without confetti?
On the way to take a load of photos, took a photo
The first time I've been in Nottingham's bus station,
Car Park Rooftops are my fave
Card Games and Calligraphy in Japanese Society
Rainbow over Campus
Trees blossoming are just too pretty

Ok so that's a lot of photos, so much happened in March! It was actually a wonderful month, where I really felt home in Nottingham and at Uni. Happy times.

Good things that happened in March:
- Nottingham finally, properly felt like home
- I ate a lot of good food
- I had good sober nights out! Yay 4 healing my stomach
- My Mum came to visit me
- Flowers started to pop up everywhere, and the trees started to look green
- I went to one of the best gigs I've ever been to for Fanclub's 2nd Birthday
- Took time to scout out photography locations and go explore
- Did my Japanese speaking exam, and got a 2:1

So that's it for March, soon I'll be reflecting on April but for not it's back to getting through May, it's going to be a tough one.

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